Dream-Of-Serenity

I went into my gallery today and realized my deviantart activity has been...lacking. The front page has art on it from exactly a year ago this month. And its not that I haven't been drawing either! I've been drawing like crazy, but all of it has been going to my tumblr.

So, I am going to start submitting some of those things to my deviant art. Not all, but some. I guess I just like that with tumblr the process is a lot quicker and less complicated then it is here on DA, and that you can submit stuff in clusters if you have a dump of stuff.

Basically, I'm here to warn you o art spam. Heads up!

SO LIKE...YEAH! CAN WE HAVE MORE OF THIS MOVIE SERIES?! PLEASE?! I DON'T THINK I CAN WAIT UNTIL 2017, THAT'S THREE YEARS! I'LL BE TWENTY-FOUR BY THE TIME IT COMES OUT! DAMMIT!!!

I've literally not wanted a sequel so badly for a movie before. Like, I'm fine with sequels but I just sit back and wait for them to happen. However, this is just...this is intense. I'm going to talk about the movie a bit so if you haven't seen it and don't want spoilers don't keep reading, but I have to get my thoughts out.

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Okay first off CHARACTERS!!! I loved every single one of them. The only one I found made me yawn was Ronan, but typical straight up badguys bore me anyway. He wasn't all that great. But Nebula was a pretty fantastic villain! I knew I was going to love Rocket, and there are so many ways they could have screwed the character up. But they didn't, and he's amazing and my favorite and I'll explain why in a moment but everyone else still blew me away. I honestly didn't plan on enjoying Gamora and Drax as much as I did BUT I DID! They are just as funny as everyone else in this movie. And Peter is one of the greatest protagonists we've had in a while. Let's go in order...

Peter (Starlord) Quill: The character has you crying just two minutes into the movie after they off his mother. Not even joking, it takes a lot to have me tear up at movies. It really does, so finding myself get a little misty eyed was weird. It was just like 'I CAME HERE TO SEE A FUNNY MOVIE WHAT IS THIS?!' He's such a great character though, and really its because of Chris Pratt. We've seen Peter Quil in many, many different movies. He's the asshole, womanizer who's a rascal but secretly has a heart of gold and he likes to goof off but he's kind of a jerk. This part wouldn't have worked if they had picked anyone else for his actor. Pratt was beyond perfection. Also Quil and his 70's-80's jams was pretty great.

Gamora: Adopted by a man who killed her parents right in front of her and raised to be a deadly assassin. How MESSED up is that?! Firstly how do you tolerate living under someone that killed your family for so long, let alone let them make you into a death machine?! Gamora starts off cold, but not without snark and I loved that because it would have been so easy not to give her any personality past 'Miss Brooding'. Best part was, though they show her and Quill being romantic towards one another, it is such a minor focus! Good job, guys. The clip of her being topless from behind in the trailer? Wasn't in the movie anywhere. Very clever, Marvel. You reeled in the pervs while still keeping your dignity.

Drax: Okay so Rocket explains to Quill that metaphors will go over Drax's head due to his culture, where Drax then replies 'Nothing goes over my head. My reflexes are too great, I would catch it.". Yeah, he's like that the whole movie and it is fantastic. He is hilariously literal, while still being a complete psycho AND tragic. Like...you feel bad for him because his wife and daughter were killed by Ronan, and then at the same time he is laughing like a lunatic while he's fighting. He's great.

Groot: If someone says they don't like Groot they are lying. Everyone on the team is some kind of thug except for Groot. He is completely innocent and is only deemed as a fellow outlaw because he adores Rocket and will do whatever he says, which is bounty hunting, theft, and prison breaks. He is an innocent, gentle, very very sweet creature that can also run roots through not only your body, but the minions standing behind you, lift all of you off the ground at once, and slam you from wall to wall until you are a pile of mess on the floor. He took out an entire hallway of guys and then when he was finished he turned around to Quill and smiled like, 'Groot do good?! I bet Groot did good! Rocket would be so proud of Groot!' Ho-lee-crap.

Rocket: So, back to what I was saying about messing the character up. They don't treat him like a mascot, or a sidekick. The trailers certainly put him off as one, since we all know a gun-slinging raccoon is marketable as hell. However, he is just so funny and so heart wrenching at the same time. He was a normal raccoon that was illegally experimented on. Most of his skeletal structure is cybernetics. He doesn't even know that he's a raccoon, he just thinks he was a normal person that was tortured for most of his life! He has no clue what he is or who he is, except that there is nothing like him in the entire universe, which he plays off with pride but in reality just makes him lonely. He starts having a little bit of a meltdown after he gets drunk and exclaims that he was taken apart and put back together over and over again and made into a monster. Then you have his maniac side, which is an evil genius that likes large guns and explosives just a little too much. He has to be pretty strong, too, because a lot of the ones he uses or just about as big as he is. I would have loved him despite being a raccoon. 

I seriously recommend seeing this movie, guys. It will ruin you for the next three years, but it will be worth it.

Life really is like a rollercoaster, y'know. It seems I take turns writing good and bad news on my DA journal. I could be writing my thoughts on tumblr like a lot of my friends do, but honestly, deviantart seems to be a lot more quiet and I have less followers on here so its not as overwhelming. I'm looking to write a journal, put my thoughts away, and hear others opinions, not cause a drama bomb. I do really appreciate those that do read these, though.

Anyway, update. First thing that's been on my mind for a while is that my oldest ferret, Pan, is gettin up there in age. I think he's about 7 now and that's the expected lifespan for a ferret. He's thin, can barely walk because of his frail hips, and has a tumor on his neck. Not a fatal one, thank goodness for that, but he itches at it. He's the last of the original two I started out with, Ozzie having passed away years ago, and then my third ferret, Japolo, shortly after from old age, and I'm not sure if I'm ready for Pantalaimon to go yet. I've had him for about five years now. What's just as hard is seeing him be old, because watching him stumble around the house I remember when he used to dash out from under the couch and attack our feet like a little carpet shark and steal stuffed animals to hide under my bed. Now he just kind of wanders aimlessly around, eats, and sleeps. I can tell he misses Ozzie and Japolo, especially Ozzie, because we have a stuffed ferret toy that he likes to carry around the house with him and sleep with. Its the oddest thing, he treats it like its real. If the stuffed animal falls over on its side, he'll put in the effort to sit it back upright. He started doing this shortly after Ozzie passed away. He doesn't really seem to care about my two newest ferrets, Felix and Lina, either. I got them to keep him company but he doesn't seem to care whether they're here at all.

Biggest current problem, however, is job hunting. I'm unemployed and my mother was recently laid off from a company she had been working for, for 12 years. We were struggling enough before as it was, since my dad decided it would be well and fun to run out on us as well as short us money whenever he can get away with it, but with our biggest source of income gone we are kind of screwed. I've lost sleep and I've felt myself sinking back into a depression I only just climbed out of. I've started having small anxiety attacks, that's REALLY NEW. And not good, I'm assuming. That and I'm realizing its around the same time last year that my mother and I discovered my father had been cheating again and left soon after. So just...god our house is a wreck right now! Patrick's back from college and he's been touchy about dad, as is Nathan and he's turning 15 this summer so he's going through a tough emotional growth, Alexis seems to be the most pure, happy little thing on the planet so none of this has really phased her, but my mom's gotten ill from all the stress and heartbreak and we recently found out she's anemic to add to that.

Lose your husband and your job? Why don't we take away half your blood and your health too! That should cheer you right up!

Not to mention I feel that two of my best friends on the planet are starting to slip away from me. Thankfully I have my roommate to keep me company (and sane), but my oldest childhood friend is starting to piss me off with how immature she acts towards said roommate and I've felt that another one of my friends has started losing interest in me and I see her as like a big sister.  

Uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuurgh. Fuck Everything. In retrospect, things could be worse and its stuff like this I can cope with pretty well if I'm given them in small doses, but all of this over the course of a few months is just too much. I want to both scream and just go sleep in a corner, but life goes on and I have things I need to do and people who depend on me. 

Now that I've put you through some of the crappy stuff, I owe both you and myself a list of the good that has happened. Because there is! There's always something nice happening at the same time as the bad things. If there wasn't I would be driven insane! My art has really taken off! Sort of. I work on Doctor Whooves & Assistant audio dramas now, as I stated in my last journal, and everyone there is just fantastic! Really some of the nicest people I have ever had the pleasure of talking with and I've made some really good friends in the short time I've been with them. Even met a special someone that is helping with my truckload of emotions. I thank him greatly for that, he's such a sweetie. I think we've been dating for going on three months now?

I've also begun a drawn ask blog for Ponies With Pockets based off of one of the DW&A characters, while trying to see where else I can use my art to help around other blogs that might need it. I'm not going to lie, though, I've been kept pretty busy with my art and all of its my volunteer stuff because commissions haven't been doing great. 

Just letting you know, that's not a plug. I'm not that pathetic. I'm basically doing extensive whining right now. 

It has gotten very...much, though. Its been a mix of art, video editing for a personal project, some voice over work for an abridged series I'll be doing, and writing. I don't even know when I'll be able to start working on my web comic, especially if I find a real job. I just can't say no, though, and I'm not sure I want to! Even though I've piled my work up, its kept me distracted from all the bad that's been happening. Because even though there's a lot of it, its at least something I genuinely enjoy doing even if I'm not being paid. I like feeling that something I love doing matters to somebody for once and that I can get a 'thank you' every now and then for doing a good job. Of course, posting art on here and getting such nice comments from you guys is just as rewarding! Its hard to believe from this text wall, but I'm not all that talkative and even a little shy, so I don't always reply to your comments but I read every single last one of them while internally squealing myself silly. In conclusion, I'll keep raising my hand at new opportunities and putting my best foot forward with a smile on my face just for the few moments that make me feel like I have meaning, while being grateful every step of the way. Because whatever is going on in tumblr, deviantart, or skype right now is a hell of a lot better then what's happening out here, I'll tell ya that folks. Is this a healthy train of thought? Probably not, but ask me if I care. :/

And my first time doing anything like this. If you'd like to see the prices and some examples of what you would get for your money, here is a link to the commissions post I made on my tumblr!

So...if you were to look back a couple of journals, you would know I had a pretty crappy 2013. I mean it was just about as bad as it could possibly get. I'm not being whiny or trying to draw attention, because I know people have had worse and my problems are a drop in the bucket, but the point I'm trying to make is this.